Lost Self


She was only a junior in high school
With big dreams and high hopes
She wanted to help others in need
Those who had nothing
Not even a memory
She met a man who was six years her age
There was a lot of ambivalence
Many questions she asked herself
Scared to say no in fear of getting hurt
With all the men she knew
Each and everyone took something from her soul
With doubts in her head she still spent time with this man
Knowing the outcome may still be the same
She slept with him twice with everything in tact
Only to find out he was not a man of his word
She left him with all his lies
And vowed to never return
For everything he had done
Dreadful news came to light
Pregnant with his child
Even though he was out of sight
She debated on whether or not to tell this man
The one who broke her heart
Knowing he would only reject her
She decided to speak the truth
To tell him she was pregnant
Which wasn’t good news
This man was extremely angry at the news
Telling her there was no way she could ever have this child
He told her the military wouldn’t approve
Of a man having sex with a minor
She vowed to have this child
Regardless of how he felt
She turned to leave his house
With a grab of the wrist
This man kept her from leaving
Punching her in the stomach
Falling to her knees in pain
She realized she was losing her baby
At the hands of this man

Filled with nothing but lies